Am I in Jr. High?

Today I erased a certain somebody's number from my phone. Now that I think about it, it sounds kinda childish. I like him alot, but as the girl, I need to be persued, not the other way around.
When I erased it, I felt a little apprehensive, but then it was followed by a good feeling. Well, that good feeling slowly evaporated, and now I feel like CRAP! What am I doing?! I'm so confused with him, I always have been. How does he get me so well, but sometimes I just cant figure him out? This is something I think about alot. I cherish his friendship and hanging out with him is one of my favorite things to do; I don't know why I'm putting it on the line. But I need more. I get so easily confused, I need to just relax and taek what comes, whether it be with him or with out.